Relationship-wrecked

by Thought Provoken on February 8, 2010

she said she loves,
heart flutters like doves.
He said he loved,
Did he know what love was?

Tears in her eyes
As her face hits the pillow .
Lets out low sigh
Black mascara on the linen.

Lowered eyes faint cries
Can still feel the room spinning.
Quivered lips, heart skips
For little more than a minute.

She said she loved him and she meant it,
He said he loved her but probably didn’t.
She can’t figure why he did it,
Can’t finger his intentions.
Not to mention finding forgiveness
when the pain remains vivid.

Dried eyes, was she blind?
Something she could’ve predicted?
Something that she missed,
Did she see a lie and live it?

NO.

She confronted him,
She wanted him to admit it…
That shit was different,
Something missing…
She threw a fit
When he didn’t.
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He felt like shit when he did it.
Heart swells, breaths heavy…
She’s gonna feel like I hid it,
Tears flow, broke levy.

Low sigh, no lie
He loved her/“all or nothing” was what she wanted.
Tears in her eyes
The last time she confronted.
Overpowered butterflies
fluttering round in his stomach.

Now he had done it.

She was his world, his sun
But he just needed space.
Earth quaked, hurt aches
Gravity pulls rain down his face.

Streams fall to his shoulders…
He wishes he could hold her…
But he watched her shoulder grow colder
When he told her.

A whirlwind of emotions
Ravage the landscape.
Winds in the ocean
Love boats in its wake.

And there he lay, washed up on the shore
Vowing to drown in love no more.

Decision like a Kamikaze mission,
Deep incisions/vision blurs…
He ruptured his heart
the moment he broke hers.

He thinks….
He should’ve stayed alone from the start.

‘Cuz every time he touches a heart…
He crushes a heart.
Every time he takes a heart…
He breaks a heart.

Days are like those waves…
They ebb…they flow.
He will always love her–
Wherever her ship goes…
Wherever the wind blows…
More than he shows…
More than she knows.

Love can be a dream,
But its seas are seldom serene.

Relationshipwrecked

Phillip B. Agnew
773.412.6094
www.philclinton.com

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Is the ‘Avatar’ concept really possible?

by Thought Provoken on February 8, 2010

By Elizabeth Landau, CNN
February 3, 2010 9:07 a.m. EST
(CNN) — Now the highest-grossing film ever, “Avatar,” has captivated millions of viewers with its picturesque scenery, extraterrestrial battles, and nature-loving, blue-skinned aliens.The premise of the film is that humans can enter the world of these 10-foot aliens, called the Na’vi, by way of half-human, half-Na’vi hybrids.

A high-tech interfacing mechanism allows a human to remain inert while controlling one of these avatar hybrids just by thinking. Not only does the human manipulate the avatar’s movements and speech, but he or she also experiences life — every sensation, feeling and emotion — through the eyes of the hybrid, as if consciousness were transferred. Scientists say we are many decades, even centuries, away from making this kind of sophisticated interaction possible, if it can be done at all.

But the fundamentals of components required to create this complicated system of mind-controlled avatars are already in the works, and have useful applications in medicine.”We’re starting to understand the basic building blocks, but the biggest challenges will be emotion and thought — how to make another organism think what you think, to feel what you feel — because those networks are much more difficult to sort out,” said Dr. Brian Litt, associate professor of neurology and bioengineering at the University of Pennsylvania.

Moving remote objects by thinking

Although nothing as complex as manipulating a creature through thought has been done, scientists working on allowing handicapped people to move prosthetic limbs with their minds are making headway. This idea actually played a role in the movie: Protagonist Jake Sully was in a wheelchair in his human body, but could walk, run and jump as his avatar.

One demonstration has been shown by Miguel Nicolelis, a neuroscientist at Duke University, who is working on robotic leg braces. In 2008, his group got a monkey in North Carolina to mentally control the walking patterns of a robot in Japan.

This was done by implanting electrodes in the brains of two rhesus monkeys. The electrodes recorded how cells in the brain’s motor and sensory cortex responded to walking on the treadmill at various speeds. The monkeys’ legs also had sensors to record walking patterns.

Researchers used all this information to predict the exact speed of movement and stride length of the legs, and uploaded that information to a robot in Japan, getting the robot to move in synch with a monkey thousands of miles away in real time. Even when the treadmill was turned off, a monkey continued making the robot walk just by thinking for a few minutes.

Another arena is one of virtual reality: controlling an avatar in a video game with your mind. Jaime Pineda, cognitive neuroscientist at the University of California, San Diego, is working with a brain-computer interface that allows participants to move a car around a racetrack, fly a plane and do other virtual tasks on a screen, simply by thinking. The mental training for this takes about four to six hours, he said.

“It is based on the motor parts of your brain. That’s what we’re recording from, and so if you think about moving, it’s actually as if you are actually moving,” he said.

Apart from the entertainment value, Pineda sees this as a future therapy for autistic children. The theory is that because people with autism have less conductivity between various parts of the brain, participating in mind-controlled video games may normalize those circuits. Results from his lab show improvement in social interaction and other behaviors after 10 or 20 weeks of playing the game in the lab.

Uploading information

For an “Avatar”-style brain-computer interface, an enormous amount of data would have to be transferred from the person to the avatar extremely quickly, Litt said.

Here’s what’s possible now: Scientists such as Gerwin Schalk at the New York State Department of Health’s Wadsworth Center have harnessed the brain’s electrical impulses to have people mentally type their thoughts using electrodes on the surface of the head. The rate is typically seven words per minute. In one epileptic patient who had electrodes already on the brain for clinical purposes, the record was 20 words per minute.

This kind of technology is useful for people who are paralyzed and cannot communicate, Schalk said. His research group also works on using electrodes to extract specific information from the brain such as people’s actual actions, imagined actions and intended actions — even how they move individual fingers.

The research “has changed that widespread assumption that it’s not really impossible to acquire detailed information from the brain in humans,” Schalk said.

Litt’s group studies the brain’s networks involved in epilepsy. The researchers are looking at the abnormal circuits to figure out the basic units of the brain that generate seizures. They have licensed intellectual property for a device that can improve epilepsy by stimulating specific brain regions, potentially eliminating the need for surgery.

“I see tremendous possibilities for more and more ability to unlock these networks,” he said.

Transferal of sensations and emotions

The area of this “avatar science” that will be most difficult to sort out is being able to feel and think as the avatar, Litt said.

Today there are auditory prostheses called cochlear implants that encode signals that allow people to hear who could not otherwise, as well as rudimentary visual aids. It is also possible to stick a pin in a particular part of someone’s brain and induce sensations of various temperatures, pressures and even pain levels, just by stimulating certain neural circuits.

“But there’s a far cry from doing that to being able to make somebody feel an emotion or see something,” Litt said.

The technical hurdles, including transferring huge amounts of information extremely rapidly and building devices to both extract signals from the brain and inject signals into the brain, are significant, he said.

Clearly, people aren’t going to be able to climb into personal pods and use their brains to remotely control 10-foot-tall creatures any time soon. Andrew Schwartz, neuroscientist at the University of Pittsburgh, added in an e-mail that it is not even clear what “consciousness” is. There’s no rigorous definition, and how it looks in the brain is unknown.

“It’s a wonderful movie, but it shouldn’t be taken as anything but fantasy,” he said.

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Journey of a Photog

by Thought Provoken on January 28, 2010

So the first time I picked up a camera was nearly 4 years ago.  I bought a Nikon D50 with the extra cash I had from selling drugs for Pfizer (yeah I was a drug dealer).  I had a passion for the imagery and artistry that photography brought but never had the money for film.  When I found I could shoot all I wanted via digital, I salivated at the opportunity.

Like a kid with a new puppy, I fell in love with my SLR.  I slept with it, carried it everywhere with me and sought to fuse my mind with the machinery in my hand.  Essentially, I became the camera.  Once I mastered the mechanics of the shutter speed and aperture, I was able to tell my story through the ultimate lens (the eye).

Like a shapeless being, I floated through my surroundings and became the fly on the wall on the subways, through the gardens, and in the concrete jungle of DC.  The year 2006 marked a turning point in my life where I fell in love with a form of expression that I cherish to this day.

So flash-forward 4 years, 7 countries and hundreds of images that are timepieces of my progression as a human being.  This is the year that I will host my first show and I want to take you along the journey with me.  I had the opportunity to have a sit-down discussion with a phenomenal photographer friend of mine Tara who I have known since college.  She is a genius when it comes to the art and has a keen eye for how to market the expression of photography that helps the art transcend to new levels.

Right now I am going through the process of boiling down my work to a body of work.  Its such a violent process for me because its causing me to systematically disassemble what I think my work is about to recreate a stream of thought that ties the work together.  It takes a non-objective mindset and a willingness to destroy an original image and mindset in order to rebuild a message of uniqueness.

Today, I went through hundreds of my photos and picked some of my favorites.  There is no consistency in the work, just a grouping of images that are most striking to me.  The next step is to decide who I am as an artist and then chose the images that best represent me…

this is my journey…

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